Trip to New Mexico

Saturday we started out to New Mexico......And it still had not hit me that we were actually leaving and not coming back for quite some time. Brandon and I drove 12 HOURS that day. We made it to Green River, Utah, had to stay in a motel 6. I am sorry but I will NEVER stay in that motel ever again. Brandon found q-tips under the bed and they were like super yellow!!!! Talk about NASTY!

We left pretty late on Sunday. But stopped at Arches National Park.
Brandon and I called this the Stairway to Heaven. It was so pretty. We actually walked right up to it. It was a lot of fun.

We also went to Four Corners, which is where Colorado, New Mexico, Arizona, and Utah all come together. Brandon and I kissed in 4 different states. :) I also got horsehair pottery. It is really pretty.

I SAW A DEAD HORSE ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD!!!!!!!!!!! It was the most terrible thing that I had ever seen.....So So So Sad!

Well we finally made it to the hotel at 10 in the pm.....It was a super long day...But Henry did so well. He is adapting very fast. Our room is small but livable.

Now everyone is watching the BSU Game.... I guess nothing really changes even though you are in a different state. Which is G-O-O-D! GOOD!

Oh and on our first day here I made tacos for dinner.....Getting the New Mexico theme.

What is weird is the stop lights...they are horizontal instead of vertical.....Brandon has a hard time with that. He also ran a red light. What a weirdo.
God Bless!

Stacey

New Adventures

It is September already! I cannot believe it! So much is going on that I don't really know where to start.

Brandon's new job working on Wind Mill Towers has really started to take off. He also works with his dad and Nick.....He is really liking it even though it is super hard work. Well the next job is in New Mexico!!! Ya, NEW MEXICO!!!!! That means that we are packing up our bags and heading out!

I am really excited yet extremely nervous too....I have never been away from my family for more than a week. I am going to miss everyone so much but I know that it will be an ADVENTURE! So that is what I am taking it as. We are in the process of getting everything packed and moved into the garage so that my sister can live there while we are gone.

We are leaving Saturday at 7am! We are also taking Henry (my sweet kitty). Not sure how he is going to like driving all the way to New Mexico but we will see.

Well I will make sure to post all the fun stuff that we are going to be doing....

I can see God working this all out. And I am putting my complete trust in him.

God Bless!

Stacey

I don't really know what to say.

I do, but I don't know how to put it into words

I guess I am at a loss for words.

Here we go....

I am FRUSTRATED.

I don't understand why things happen the way that they do.

I don't understand how one person can work SO HARD

yet never catch a break.

Brandon works extremely hard!

Not only at work, but at home too.

He even does work for other people.

He never complains.

He has tried to get a different job......

He says that he has always wanted to be a police man

So he filled out an application and got the interview

He was so excited. But then it did not happen

The look that he got in his eyes made my heart break.

I saw that same look just yesterday.

I hate it. He looked so discouraged and there was nothing for me to do.

Yes, I gave him a hug, told him I was sorry and that I loved him.

I still think that he is hurting and confused.

My Brandon Bear is hurting and there is nothing I can do.

He should have got it. He is very qualified.

But its a big decision....

We prayed about it and put it in God's hands

But even though the decision has been made, it does not make the hurt go away.

I just want him to get a job that he will love.

Because he deserves that and more.

Please fill Brandon with your peace, Lord.

And wash away the hurt.

-Stacey

Thank You!!!!!!!!

I have the BEST family and friends ever!!!

First I want to say thank you to my husband. He always knows exactly what to say. He is ALWAYS there for me and loves me unconditionally. He is my SUPER HERO. Just a hug from him lifts my spirits. God matched us perfectly. There is no one else like him........And I am so happy that we get to have a HAPPILY EVER AFTER!!!

I love my mom so much. Brandon and I have been struggling financially......It is not fun. I hate the feeling of not paying your bills on time because you have no money in the account. Well my mom came over and brought us some food......and she even gave us some money to pay for our bills. She is such a wonderful mother. Always helping others.......I could not ask for a better mom. Even when I just need someone to talk to...She is ALWAYS there. (and she is pretty! =D).

Tierney is the best!!! I could not ask for a better best friend. Even though she is busy with her own life....She makes time for me. She is so encouraging and is there when you need her. I know that if I need to just talk that I can call her up....I look up to her. She is becoming a wonderful woman of God and will soon be a wife to a great man. I am SO excited for her. I cannot believe that she will be getting married in a little more than a year. Her and I will always be the BEST OF FRIENDS!!!!

Thank you God for such a wonderful husband, an amazing family, and great friends......I thank God EVERY DAY for blessing me with so much.

How did I get so blessed? I don't deserve it, I know that for a fact. I love everyone so much.

Thank you so much for always being there for me.

God Bless

Stacey

Lets Get It Started!

I can't wait until we get money saved up so that Brandon and I can move forward on our house! We have tons that we want to do, let me just give you an idea.......

Back Yard:

Finish fence

Get grass, trees, and flowers

Get our garden started....We want to fence it in and have an arch with a little gate!

build a deck

furniture for the back yard......and a BBQ and one of those fire pit things.

House:

put in under-the-counter lights

put in doggie door

build shelves in all the closets, pantry, and garage

get blinds and curtains

Need stuff to put together a small scrapbooking area

We have so much that we want to do! And I am so excited just to get started! I think that we will just have to start out......There is no way that we will be able to get all this done before summer is over because we would need lots of money!

I love everything about our house!!! It is the best.....And we even have a path that Brandon, Bella, and I go for a walk on everyday. It is just behind all the houses. It has tons of trees and birds and it is so peaceful.

I thank God everyday for blessing me with so much!

God Bless

Stacey

TRUSTING IN GOD!

I always dread this time. It is the part of the month where it could be or it could not be. So I wait and wait and wait.......

I try not to think about it.......Try not to get my hopes up. And then its late.That can only mean one thing. being late for nine days. But then the thing that you don't want to come finally comes. And when that happens I go in a state of zoning. Where nothing else matters, I am just going through the motions......but inside I am falling apart.

Why was it so late?? Did it happen purposely just to mess with me? To get me all excited and then have it all crash down around me.

It happens every month....I know that it has only been like 4-5 months of trying, but it feels like a lifetime.(I know that it is not like a year of waiting but I have wanted it for a long time) Brandon and I prayed before we even started. We asked him to let it happen when it was right. When he thought that we would be ready. I don't want to wait anymore. I just want it to come. I want to experience it.

Tons of questions come into my head......What if Brandon and I can't?? What if I never get to experience it? Never get to have one of my own? It could happen!

It is so hard. I get SO frustrated and don't understand why it just doesn't happen. How hard can it be. I am doing everything I know to do and still it does not happen. Some people have it happen so easily so they don't have to go through the waiting process.....The long process of maybe or maybe not.Which is so miserable! (I cannot take much more of this)

WHEN WILL IT BE TIME?

But once the shock leaves, we go back to the beginning of waiting.

I realize that I am going to be okay. God is on my side. I am trusting him, and knowing that one day it will happen. Yes! It will. But only in Gods timing. I try to make Gods timing, MY timing and thats not right........I am believing in him. He knows my heart. He knows the what Brandon and I are going through. And I KNOW that he loves me!! He is an Almighty God! So I will trust in the Lord with my all my heart and soul and mind.

God Bless

Stacey

Marriage

I cannot believe that I have been married for 9 months. It feels like it has flown by. We have had many ups and downs.....we have added to our family( a kitty named Henry and a pup named Bella) and one was taken away. My precious cat Mittens, I had him since I was 12. The best thing is that through these 9 months we have had God centered in our marriage. I am so happy that God chose him to be my knight in shinning armor!

Brandon is an amazing husband. He is my rock!! I know that he will always be there for me. He loves me unconditionally. He is funny but very ornery. This man never and I mean never gets angry....You have to try really hard to get him steaming! (Not that I try to do it) It has actually only happened one time, but I am sure that it will happen more as life goes on. He is also very loud.....always making some kind of noise..... either whistling or singing or bird calls.

Sometimes I think, Is something going to happen?? My parents are not happy...Half the time they can not stand each other.Is that going to happen to Brandon and I? They do not have a perfect marriage. My dad is not the nicest man to be around and my mom is very stubborn. (Brandon says that I am stubborn, i don't know what he is talking about!) But my mom loves him unconditionally....No matter what he does, yeah she gets upset and yells back at times. But in her heart, she loves him. My dad, I don't really know. I guess he does not show his feeling very well..... It will not happen in our marriage because we have seen what happens and all the heartache that comes along with it.

Something that I really need to work on is opening up with Brandon, telling him how I am feeling. I know that I have put up a wall because I don't want to get hurt. I don't want him to leave me. I don't talk to Brandon about the way that I feel. I have always held it inside. And I know that he is hurt because I don't open up. I really don't know how. But I know that he loves me and will ALWAYS be there for me.

Right now I am reading a book called, Love & Respect. It is a great book. It says that a women needs to be loved and a man need to be respected. For example: a woman may say.... you don't love me, and the man feels disrespected by her saying that and that in turn has him lash out unlovingly.

Ephesian 5:33- "However, each one of you MUST love his wife as he loves himself and the wife MUST respect her husband."

I have memorized that verse....and quoted it many times. But I never really knew what it said. This is a command saying that I must respect my husband. I know that at times I don't. I say things that are not nice...I know that I am just joking but still it comes out as unloving and disrespectful. I am trying really hard to show him and tell him how much I respect him. Because I love him with all my heart!!! I recommend this book. I am not finished. But so far it is great, It is for people whose marriage is falling apart, those whose marriage is wonderful but you want to make it better, even for engaged couples.

I want my marriage to be filled with laughter and joy. I know that sometimes it will be filled with tears, but Brandon and I will be side by side with God leading the way.I can't wait for Brandon and I to hit the one year mark!!!

God Bless

Stacey

Bow Shooting

Hey All!!!

I am so excited to start a blog. though I am not sure exactly what to say so this one will be short.

Brandon is set on me learning how to shoot a bow. He gave me his old one and painted it pink with leaves on it.It is so adorable. He has outdone himself! I really want to learn how to shoot it, but I don't want to be bad.

So today I will have my first practice time. I am not so sure how well I will do. Brandon wants me to like it so much.......It makes me alittle nervous. I am not very sporty.......Change that, I am not sporty AT ALL. This is not going to be good I just know it.

I will be having arrows going all different ways....that is if I can even pull it back. I guess I will never know unless I try.