Thank You!!!!!!!!

I have the BEST family and friends ever!!!

First I want to say thank you to my husband. He always knows exactly what to say. He is ALWAYS there for me and loves me unconditionally. He is my SUPER HERO. Just a hug from him lifts my spirits. God matched us perfectly. There is no one else like him........And I am so happy that we get to have a HAPPILY EVER AFTER!!!

I love my mom so much. Brandon and I have been struggling financially......It is not fun. I hate the feeling of not paying your bills on time because you have no money in the account. Well my mom came over and brought us some food......and she even gave us some money to pay for our bills. She is such a wonderful mother. Always helping others.......I could not ask for a better mom. Even when I just need someone to talk to...She is ALWAYS there. (and she is pretty! =D).

Tierney is the best!!! I could not ask for a better best friend. Even though she is busy with her own life....She makes time for me. She is so encouraging and is there when you need her. I know that if I need to just talk that I can call her up....I look up to her. She is becoming a wonderful woman of God and will soon be a wife to a great man. I am SO excited for her. I cannot believe that she will be getting married in a little more than a year. Her and I will always be the BEST OF FRIENDS!!!!

Thank you God for such a wonderful husband, an amazing family, and great friends......I thank God EVERY DAY for blessing me with so much.

How did I get so blessed? I don't deserve it, I know that for a fact. I love everyone so much.

Thank you so much for always being there for me.

God Bless

Stacey

Lets Get It Started!

I can't wait until we get money saved up so that Brandon and I can move forward on our house! We have tons that we want to do, let me just give you an idea.......

Back Yard:

Finish fence

Get grass, trees, and flowers

Get our garden started....We want to fence it in and have an arch with a little gate!

build a deck

furniture for the back yard......and a BBQ and one of those fire pit things.

House:

put in under-the-counter lights

put in doggie door

build shelves in all the closets, pantry, and garage

get blinds and curtains

Need stuff to put together a small scrapbooking area

We have so much that we want to do! And I am so excited just to get started! I think that we will just have to start out......There is no way that we will be able to get all this done before summer is over because we would need lots of money!

I love everything about our house!!! It is the best.....And we even have a path that Brandon, Bella, and I go for a walk on everyday. It is just behind all the houses. It has tons of trees and birds and it is so peaceful.

I thank God everyday for blessing me with so much!

God Bless

Stacey

TRUSTING IN GOD!

I always dread this time. It is the part of the month where it could be or it could not be. So I wait and wait and wait.......

I try not to think about it.......Try not to get my hopes up. And then its late.That can only mean one thing. being late for nine days. But then the thing that you don't want to come finally comes. And when that happens I go in a state of zoning. Where nothing else matters, I am just going through the motions......but inside I am falling apart.

Why was it so late?? Did it happen purposely just to mess with me? To get me all excited and then have it all crash down around me.

It happens every month....I know that it has only been like 4-5 months of trying, but it feels like a lifetime.(I know that it is not like a year of waiting but I have wanted it for a long time) Brandon and I prayed before we even started. We asked him to let it happen when it was right. When he thought that we would be ready. I don't want to wait anymore. I just want it to come. I want to experience it.

Tons of questions come into my head......What if Brandon and I can't?? What if I never get to experience it? Never get to have one of my own? It could happen!

It is so hard. I get SO frustrated and don't understand why it just doesn't happen. How hard can it be. I am doing everything I know to do and still it does not happen. Some people have it happen so easily so they don't have to go through the waiting process.....The long process of maybe or maybe not.Which is so miserable! (I cannot take much more of this)

WHEN WILL IT BE TIME?

But once the shock leaves, we go back to the beginning of waiting.

I realize that I am going to be okay. God is on my side. I am trusting him, and knowing that one day it will happen. Yes! It will. But only in Gods timing. I try to make Gods timing, MY timing and thats not right........I am believing in him. He knows my heart. He knows the what Brandon and I are going through. And I KNOW that he loves me!! He is an Almighty God! So I will trust in the Lord with my all my heart and soul and mind.

God Bless

Stacey