I don't really know what to say.

I do, but I don't know how to put it into words

I guess I am at a loss for words.

Here we go....

I am FRUSTRATED.

I don't understand why things happen the way that they do.

I don't understand how one person can work SO HARD

yet never catch a break.

Brandon works extremely hard!

Not only at work, but at home too.

He even does work for other people.

He never complains.

He has tried to get a different job......

He says that he has always wanted to be a police man

So he filled out an application and got the interview

He was so excited. But then it did not happen

The look that he got in his eyes made my heart break.

I saw that same look just yesterday.

I hate it. He looked so discouraged and there was nothing for me to do.

Yes, I gave him a hug, told him I was sorry and that I loved him.

I still think that he is hurting and confused.

My Brandon Bear is hurting and there is nothing I can do.

He should have got it. He is very qualified.

But its a big decision....

We prayed about it and put it in God's hands

But even though the decision has been made, it does not make the hurt go away.

I just want him to get a job that he will love.

Because he deserves that and more.

Please fill Brandon with your peace, Lord.

And wash away the hurt.

-Stacey